I just Lost and i dont have a clue what to do.
I dont know where am i going and what i am doing.
But wait..
Nah, i do have a perfect Life i always dreamed about. Nice Job, end of College in a few Mönths, something bout 11 months, Friends and Colleagues who do Love me. But i still do fill pitty. Everything i've dreamed of is pointless. No, i won't stop, i still do have some Goals and i will reach them, asap, i hope. But all the Way through me is going to be alone. That what kills me. I dont feel like i belong to the Society. All this People around me, i just dont have any Need to see them öfter than 1 Time per Year. And i think i've Lost the only Person i could share myself with. I'm slippin and falling, nö Idea how to get up.
And also fear, fear that in two-three years i finally lose my Soul. Only Job, maiking Money, Job. Do i want it to be like that? Not really, but i dont See any other path, it's like One Way Road with nö Turn in it. Nö other paths.